Just to prove I'm not a total Debbie Downer. Lady Gaga. I am obsessed with this video. I love it so much. I want to have sex with her because I think she could teach pretty much everyone a thing or two in the sack.
Two years have passed since my Dad died. It feels like a million. So much has happened since that Sunday.
I feel ashamed that my life was in such shambles when he passed away. All he wanted was for me to get a good, steady job and stop all the drama I was immersed in. Pretty much everything I have done since then was to try to remedy all that. But it's too late.
Rough start to this new year. I knew I should have made those black eyed peas on New Years day. Now look where I'm stuck.
I am really trying to take this whole unemployment thing a day at a time and not get frustrated, but as someone said today, it will either make or break us. I don't know which way it is leaning just yet. One of my New Year's resolutions was to stick to a budget and now I definitely have no choice. When you're left with $100 for two weeks, you are pretty much not going to buy that cute sewing box or that pitcher and glass set. I've got money for food. And not even extravagant food... the basics. Not ramen noodles, but close to it! There is a bright side to this situation, I will get my way when it comes to our lease being up. We are downsizing and we have no choice. The thought of splitting $900 in rent makes me giddy, makes my chest tight, makes me wish time would speed forward. Another good thing, Brian may end up in a job he doesn't HATE. Will he see this as a blessing? You receive in return what you send out... and maybe he will learn to live with himself. There is no point in hating your life when you do nothing to change it. I am just striving to be content, and I wish he would do the same.
One thing I learned today that has me excited... I am getting THREE raises. In all they will total up to $1.03, but that's pretty awesome to me.
